Eventually got an offer

When i hotheaded resigned on September, i think it's easy to change an industry and get a higher position & salary, so i never worried about my future, but i was wrong, totally wrong. i overrated my abilities, the reality is harsh, and it's more harsh to get an higher position & salary in this season.

A smart guy will not resign at the end of the year because of the year-end bonus and the double salary of the final month. It's a huge amount about 20,000RMB, but i give it up. I can't tolerate my job any more at that time and i try to make myself believe i make the right decision and will have a better future, and it's worth to give up 20,000RMB.

Any way, past is past, then unfortunately i'm unemployed for 2 months, there are not many vacant positions in this season because as i say, a smart guy will not resign at the end of the year, meantime result in rarely job opportunities, especially good job opportunities. I send hundreds of my resumes through job searching websites and get lots of help from friends for recommendating me but get less than 10 interview chances, lol...

For this 10 chances, I cherish all of them and try my best to prepare, to study, to practice, to perfect myself, but still failed most of them, and the rest don't fit for me, it's so hurt. I'm so disappointed and depressed and suspect the whole thing and feel myself crap and all shit...2 months! OMG!

Then suddenly i find a vacant postion of an famous American company, i heared it's difficult to enter this company but still send my resume, just for a final try, if i fail again i will leave this city and go to Shanghai to re-start...how lucky i received a call to join the written examination and interview, and more luckily pass it and then pass its second and third interview and finally got an offer...

So never give up yourself, even you think you are at the bottom of your life and depressed even wanna kill yourself, but try to hold on, never give it up, we should trust we will succeed, then maybe the real good opportunities will come.

Wish all of us have good luck.

Lost in Heroes when unemployed

I'm still unemployed, so I stay at home, watching Heroes season 1, total 23 episodes in two days.And now finish watching it, it's 23:30, deep night.

Actually I bought Lost season3 and Heroes the same time weeks ago, of course I watched Lost first, Lost has two discs, and when watched half of it, the disc didn't work anymore, my notebook walkout...the start couple episodes of this tv show didn't attract me, so angry and upset...and I hadn't many time to watch them when I'm not resignation, so I just put these two tv-series in the corner and many dusts on them weeks past...

when I was boring and couldn't find something to do yesterday, notebook works and read Heroes discs normal in two days, I watched it and then couldn't stop watching after watched 5 episodes...Hero stories become more and more attractive, although overact many times. Now when finish wacthing Heroes, I haven't other shows to watch, and need wait a year or longer to watch season 2, too long...

Then I think it's maybe destiny too, the god may desen't want me lost, you know, I resign but can't find another job for monthes, the god may want me to be a hero, to try more to get a better job, instead of staying at home doing nothing everyday, lol...

When season one ends, Peter and Nathan fly to sky and explode, are they die?...Slyar escapes form drain, just some blood left...Matt was shot, don't know die or not. and how about his unborn baby? did he or she have superpower too? and the little girl Molly who can trace anyone, will she be a key role?...Hiro goes to ancientry, what's the genesis? etc...
so the episode 2 will be brilliant!

其实几个月前就买了“迷失第三季”和“英雄第一季”的碟片，迷失看到一般我的电脑就读不出来碟片内容了，正看到劲头上，非常恼怒和沮丧。而英雄前几集内容并没有吸引我，所以两部剧集的叠碟片就一直放在那里没看，已经落满灰尘。

现在无所事事失业在窝里，非常无聊，索性开始看英雄，耐着性子看完5集后就丢不下了，故事越来越精彩，虽然很多地方编剧太夸张，但并不影响观赏。

英雄第一季结束的最后一集：peter和Nathan飞到空中爆炸，他们牺牲了？Slyar从下水道逃走？现场只留下一堆血迹。Matt被击中3枪，他会死吗？他未出世的孩子会有超能力吗？被当作追踪器的小女孩Molly会有何发展？日本人Hiro回到1600年代武士道盛行的日本，将揭开故事的起源？……
这一连串的悬念，让第二季多了很多让人期待的地方，只是……要我们等的时间太长啦……

铁打的营盘流水的兵

以下为偶今天离开工作了近两年的公司时，发给同事的邮件，写在这里，作为一份特殊的纪念：（为尊重个人隐私，具体姓名已用……代替）

What's below is the outlook mail I wrote to my colleagues when I leave this company I'd been worked for nearly two years, today is the last day in this company, I publish it here just for this special experience and for memory:(use ...... instead of name just for respect their privacy)...

老友们，铁打的营盘流水的兵，这次轮到我啦，两年役满复原，也该流走了，Today is last day，依依不舍。
唯有一连串的感谢……

• 感谢……、……、……在我入职……近两年里给我的机会和指导，让我受益匪浅。
• 感谢……，在偶经常郁郁寡欢、愤世嫉俗时对偶的开导，偶一直希望有个姐的，从心里头已经当你是姐了，不要拒绝，反正我们都姓…。以后也要注意控制脾气，刀子嘴豆腐心不了解你的人会有误会的……无论如何，哪个小子能娶到你都绝对是他的幸福，也该嫁了，祝你幸福、活的洒脱~~
• 感谢……、……、……，你们这3个活宝，让每日烦琐的工作多了很多乐趣，特别在偶这个God damned f**king 愤青的映衬下，越发显得那么的可爱。控制体重，任重而道远~
• 感谢……、……、……、……，与你们共事是偶的荣幸，衷心祝愿你们有好的发展。
• 感谢……、……，没忘了你俩，工作顺利爱情顺利，常联系~
• 感谢从……一起过来，或走或留的几个哥们儿，说不定哪天又是同事……
• 感谢很多偶非常尊敬的KA manager和Sales manager，在我绿头苍蝇一般没头脑的淹没在职场的汪洋大海中时，及时给我的帮助和支持，感激不尽，你们的高素质和职业素养，是我绝好的榜样……

谢谢你们……套用某个肥肥的一句口头禅：爱死你们了……常联系

只说Good bye不说Farewell……
我的联系方式：E-mail或微软的美死你或Google的Gtalk：……
手机：……，不知道还能不能留在SZ，如有变化随时通知。
如无意外的话，本周五晚在……家附近很有特色的湖南餐馆请大家吃饭和去BabyK唱K，具体有劳……安排，谢谢.

Good good study day day up for better serving the people...

Struggle in Typhoon & Heavy Rain

Well, this year's first typhoon is coming today, when i lost my f**king job.

I'm walking in the heavy rain, wearing my totally wet clothes, feeling so bad & so lonely. Life seems hopeless and helpless these days, i'm tired of working hard but get less, but it's difficult to find a job you like or at least interested in, even after so many interviews.

I know it's my fault, i also know i should not desire so many things, i should appreciate i had a job to do when many fresh graduates unemployed, ha-ha--

It's just that, actully i don't what i wanna do and what i can do now, my brain is empty and heart is broken. i wish these hard times and bad mood quickly passed, then i wish i can find my happiness back...

Resignation and Out of work

Yeah, Isend in my resign papers and say goodbye to my boss, and immediately lost my job today.

I've been keeping busy these three years when left my campus life, haven't time to think other things except job, haven't time to have some fun, to read some books, to write some articles, even haven't time to fall in love with some one.

Then one day I feel so tired and start thinking my current life, I suddenly think my life, my job is so shucks & boring. when this feeling start, I will never stop, this feeling just grow up strong and stronger and keep torturing me. Is this what i really want? No! I answer to myself, it's going too far away my ideal, when i studied in high-school and university i never believe one day my life will comes like this, have nothing but just work like a machine.

I need some changes and i decide to resign. I don't know what I'm doing is right or not, I just did that, end my daily job, then wait my happiness or punishment, good things or bad things, whatever, all of them are changes,right?

Then maybe sleeping couple days, drinking bottles of beers, listening some pop musics, watching some porn or non-porn movies, masturbating several times, dreaming some normal or weird dreams, traveling some beautiful or ugly places, and weeks later, searching for another god damned f**king job to earn some money and continuing crap life everyday....